2008 has been an amazing year for me, I discovered so many things, I learned and I find myself. I haven't entirely find myself but I know I lost myself for a while but I'm glad I did every once in a while, at least I get to see that person when I was lost, I get to remember that I wouldn't be here and the person I am this day if I haven't gone through that road. I want and I wish with all my heart and I ask from Allah that 2009 will be the biggest turning point for me, where I achieved my success and achieve my dreams. There's so many things I wrote in my New Year Resolution 2009 and I hope I can fulfill it.
Sitting here facing the monitor just brings back the old memories where I will sit here almost everyday just to write something even though it was pretty much crap. It was like back 2 years ago. I'm amaze I even make it through now. I realise that the person you expect to be there to help you wasn't there but instead the person you less thought of was there instead. Should have concentrate now I'm all out of words to say. hehehe.. well anyway if there's more I'll update.
For What I loose and For What I Gained....
Happy New Year !
May 2009 comes be one of the best years that we get, I have a message for you all. I'll update later but still I just couldn't wait to post this message.
Brucas - I made a Mistake again.
"Brooke I made a mistake, I didn't see it at first, I was unsure whether you love me or not. Your actions sometimes tell me you care but I need to know how far do you care for me that the you can no longer use the word care but love instead." Lucas look deep into Brooke's eyes hoping to find the answer. Brooke free herself from Lucas grip. " What do you think is the answer, I don't see you understand me, I don't know how to trust you, you cheated on my bestfriend once before than you came back to me telling me you have feelings for me, but you went and kiss her. It is obvious that I lied telling you that I don't mind. Even after we were done you went running to her again, you didn't even some time being sad that you we broke up, you didn't think to search for me on my birthday, and even when you were with Peyton you cheated on her with Lindsey. How do you expect me trust you since all the things you've done has prove to me that you are not a loyal person and I don't want to make the same mistake again and again. I love you Lucas Scott but I can't let that feeling fool me even though I know that there's so much that has happen that has showed or prove to me that you will always be there till the end." Brooke look at Lucas and grab her bag. "I'm sorry Lucas the action means more that the words you say" and walk out the door. Lucas sat on his bedside wiping his face with his hand.
"It's true that action speaks louder than words and in the end sometime you hope that the words meant more than action because the words always sound sweeter and better. To me I'm not gonna change my mind, I am who I am and I will not make the same mistake"
to be continued...
