Tonight

The cold breeze tonight brings back old memories to my mind. However, it remains to be just a memory and nothing more than that. There's a reason why they turn into memories because, it's something that should never be repeated and to be remembered because it was all in the past. The reflection of the light against the lake brings some sadness into my heart because I wish I could experience them once more, but everything is gone, the feelings are long gone. Banished into the deep heart of mine and never will I open that door again. Especially not for the people who have hurt me the most in the past.
It's amazing how things change so fast. Just a few months ago, I was here as the girl who was venturing and learning the new world. Somehow, I never knew that things was going to end up this way, hence I choose to find a way to understand myself first before others. While others whisper behind my back, I will sit still in my seat and find other things to do. While they talk among themselves isolating me in the room, I will find a way to survive on my own. It is like living on my own again. Like the time I took one whole week just to find myself. This is almost the same way but I'm surviving, so far. ^,^.