Sooner or Later...

Hey everybody, I had a pretty hectic day today but I'm glad it ran smoothly. I was the facilitators for the new librarians. Pretty much I just teach them how wrap books and kick in data's. I haven't had the inspiration to write, write lyrics, compose a song, stories or edit a video. Finally after suffering for how many months without the muse standing close to me, she finally came back to help me. For over the months I have to state that there are many that has hurt me, care for me, and share the same story as me. For the people who hurt me, they didn't realise they were the cause of it all. I got to used to keeping everything buried inside of me that I forgot to express it by words. There is a say " Actions speaks louder than words" well that is how I am. It's hard for you to figure out because usually by saying it, it makes it clearer to others of your true feelings. One thing I learned if you make it clear of the things you dislike, pretty much they don't understand or try to help you that much. Some even demoralize you even more by saying your acting weird or maybe you are just over pressured. I know when I'm in denial but even if I don't realise if I'm in that circle, eventually I will come to my senses.
I have been trying to hide this feeling or avoid this feeling is because I'm in denial. I know that I'm in denial. This one person has been so blind as to see that I had always like him for who he is. As the years past by I realise I'm loosing hope, loosing confidence whether his feelings is true to me or not. In the end I choose to avoid thinking of him till recently I stumble into his pictures. Ever since he bail on me, I became over protective of myself. I refuse to talk to him for a few months and that I know is a fool of me to do that. Since then I have been having a crush on multiple guys that lasted during that moment. If he was reading this, well first he might be blind, or his clueless, or he is just to arrogant to admit anything or maybe I'm the idiot.