Reasons why I love you.You saw something in me that others don't see. You saw the best in me that hidden deep within, you saw beyond my partying and my bitchy attitude, you saw me. Somehow being with you doesn't feel used, judged and I can be somebody I want to be which makes me scared because I have never felt that with any other guy before. You might have cheat behind my back with my own bestfriend but I forgive you because maybe it was a mistake. It took me so long to accept that you might like me and I stood alone in denial wondering whether you really liked me when you took care of me. When I was about to leave, you surprised me by inviting me to live with you, when I was down you sat next to me telling that I'm so much better than that,when I was caught in a situation that I might not get to be free, you promised me that you will be there for me whatever I choose, you make me smile a true smile that bring happiness to my life, the way you look deep into my eyes, as if you saw the true me, and the sweetest thing you do. You brought me to the basketball to share parts of your life with me, you're not afraid to introduce me to your friends. You gave me hope and confidence that I can make it through. You're like a muse that brings inspiration to my life and be somebody better, You gave me words that describe me. When you told me that you would never leave me if you get a second chance, my heart fell open for you, when we kissed it was true. I was surprise but I was unsure knowing our history. When the cab was parked right outside, the urge to stay was there but I needed time assure myself that it was a mistake. When I was away I couldn't help but missing you, writing letters to you. No matter how many man I have hook up there, you were the one I wanted. I came back home full of hope but I needed you to show and prove to me why you love me. You're actions are true and your words supported them. You were always there even when I'm playing around, you dare to speak that I'm yours and you're willing to prove it. When I was down you brought the smile and make me shine, When I was stress you took me away into your world that you love and show me that life is more than to stress. We would take a walk down the neighborhood like we did before I had to leave and you surprised me by taking me in to live with you. You proved that you loved me telling things that you love about me and these are somethings I never thought you have seen in me. When we kissed in the rain my heart beat so fast that I thought this was the best thing that has happen to me. It could take years for me to list down things that make me love you. But you should know one thing, most of things I love about you is that you never left my side during the times I needed you the most. I love you Lucas Scott and will forever always will.. I just hope you see that in me than in her. But I guess fate decides that you didn't and now I see you waiting at the altar watching the woman walking down the isle and I wash that it was me that was at her place.
-Brooke Davis- (One Tree Hill)
Brucas - Everything
Into my thoughts, you will see my world
I miss nothing in the past, at least not now, I wonder what the future holds, but they say live in the present and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering. Sick of thinking about life. Everyday, there's people dying, war here, murderers, thief, and most of the time it's about the world that is not civilized. Right now I'm holding on to something that I'm loosing grip. I'm slipping into the deep, that's scary and tricky, I search in the darkness, I search for the light, everytime there's a dead end but I'm sure there's the end, just not the end of end. I write my thoughts day after day, I write my feeling and turn it to lyrics.
I'm in a strangers room, still in search for an inspiration, but the dull room invades my thoughts, with hateful, pity, lost, and scared. There's songs in my head, but nothing can describe the situation in my thoughts. Should I write a short story or should I continue on babling about nothing, what's the answer to my question, what's the thought that I'm thinking.
Tonight ! The night I will not say good night..
In the darkness of night, I fear of a shadow that is hidden, in between bushes with only the light from the moon, my vision are not as clear as a cat's eyes, paranoid and cautious of my surrounding, afraid to even fall asleep, adrenaline rush through me as I remember the time I was scared over the thing that happen a few hours ago, waiting for the sun, the clock is ticking too slow, is only 2 in the morning and there's hours to go, So I stare at the screen in front o me, listening to songs that calms me down, and keeping on watch at the tv screen, and searching for inspiration that can last me for a few hours. I call for a muse to visit me, but I guess she's asleep in her bed, I call for an angel to protect me, but I guess fate control everything.
There's Something About You
Time over time,
My thoughts fell into places,
crawling into time,
places that I misess,
being around you makes happy,
makes me smile,
makes me crappy,
makes me feel alive,
even so I never fear,
of being judged by you,
Even sometimes when there's tears,
I always look forward to seeing you,
our places are different,
I'm oil and you're vinegar,
you're the salt and I'm the pepper,
but when bread and butter,
combines to become something so much better,
I might fall for you,
But i guess things would be better,
If we both choose to follow our career,
I'm a total clutz I'll admit it,
I chase my career and not my life,
Can you keep on facing it,
To run with me no matter where it leads your life,
I know you are sweet,
and I love you for coming into my life
© 2009,S.S (30/ May/ 2009)12p.m
Describing a person's feeling... that i felt...
Have you heard that love is for eternity, love doesn't requires age difference, love can never fades, love is a promise made, love never dissapears, love is sacrificing, love is blinding, love is foolish, love is never ending.... so goes on many words that can describe love.. but how does love works.. is it promise made that will be broken, is it eternity even though death separates you, is it the age difference just brings you apart, is it the time that let it fades, is it the stupidity of minds and hearts, is it the love that never meets end. Running, from the thought. That it was possible love might bring benefit but most of the time it bring pains. In the end it's too late.. I watch love passing me, mother and daughter share a hug, boyfriend and girlfried kissing accross the street, bestfriends laughing with a smile that will never be forgotten.. In the end loneliness is what she face.. Love is sacrifice, sacrifice for the person you love, your mother, boyfriend, or maybe your bestfriend. She sacrifice for her bestfriend, she stood by the promise made, that love never fades, it may be eternity but it is what she choose as she watch her bestfriend walk down the isle with the man of her dreams maybe for eternity. Promise broken by the guy who did not see the expression on her face, the feeling she hides, to protect love...the love for her bestfried, the love for the man she loves, the love that she thought he may not have for her but only for her bestfriend as he kept running back to her. Bestfriend and boyfriend cheated behind her back, forgiveness was given but mistakes was repeated when bestfriend admit the love has never fade.. when the guy told the kiss it was the last she would accept getting hurt repeatedly. At the end of the day she wished she was the one walking down the isle.. she wished she didn't love love to much to protect love. There were signs that they were for eternity, but there were also signs that it will be gone..
There is more.. but maybe next time. This for my favorite character brooke davis.. from One Tree Hill. I have stopped watching one tree hill after season 6.
