The Rain That Made My Heart Cry

My life hasn't been easier, it's been a long, scary and hard road but I'm running out of reasons to go on. Whenever I look at my mother, tears fill my eyes as I couldn't give her the things she wants. I couldn't bless her with her dreams of having a daughter who is amazing in any form, I couldn't lavish her with wealth and things, and I couldn't give her the one thing she misses, her mother. It gives me pain to know that she pick up her phone every now and then to dial my grandmother's number to find that her mother is no longer there to pick up. I couldn't imagine being in her place, whenever you're down, whenever you're sad, whenever you wanna share a happy or sad story, only to find the one you wanna share with is not there with you. I miss my grandmother no doubt, whenever I look in the mirror and pulled my hair behind my ears, those earrings she wore before she pass just reminds me of her. Of course, it's nothing compared to the things my mother has been facing. I cried inside, because I can't hold on, I'm slipping and I'm praying to god..