Missing The Dark

As I lay in the cold bed with dim lights I shed a tear. I close my eyes and I see the girl, the girl I've missed for so long, the one I left to move on and the reason I am present now. That girl lay there beside me, our eyes looking into each other and she smiles. Could've I been selfish to leave her to find answers and future?  I lay there looking into her eyes, the pain, the hurt, the scars, the lost of hope were present.

That's when I stopped being disappointed, that's when I stopped living, that's when my my life for passion in music begin, from living in the dark. I had nothing to loose, everyday was just a waste for me. I chose not to go to school somedays, sleepless nights laying and staring at the ceiling, coming home from school and escape to the other world whenever I close my eyes, that was my life. Family meant nothing, living meant nothing, I was just wasting my days with memories that was erased as soon as the day ended. Now, I want those days, I was less disappointed with no hope, no expectation and no future to strive and live for.