Miss You

Maybe there was a wall that I built in my heart, surrounding it with vines with sharp thorns. I hid behind those walls, my comfort zone, my safe ground and a place where hurt and pain never exist. I was strong, I was ready, I got used to it. Never knew how to communicate, never let anybody in, never trust anyone so easily, never let a man in. The reason was, I've been hurt by so many men in my life. So I shut the door and I move on. I took the pieces and paste them back only to protect it even more.
However today, because of the wall I've built, I didn't realise the beauty that was behind it. I haven't felt his love for so long, his caring and when he showed it, I didn't know it, I didn't see it, I didn't want to accept it. I was so scared to get hurt over and over again so many times like he did before. Somehow in that moment, I shatter half the wall to let the sun in. That's when I realise how much I've miss him all this years. I've miss him being there, I've miss his hug, his attention, and so many more things. Yet even in that situation, my body stood still, confused in that moment. If I could tell you one thing is that I love you so much and no matter how much you hurt me, I love you and I miss you.

Inspired By : Dishwalla - Candleburn.
p/s: raw but it was what I felt.