It is interesting to know how people survive throughout the years of their life. How they got through hard times when the spices were just added a little too much for someone to cope at the time. Today, I woke up with my whole body aching, due to excessive sports that I never really like to indulge myself in but was being force to yesterday. While lying on the bed, thinking about my whole life and how I've come through, I realise that there are so many things that change but I'm afraid to accept. I hate the thought of being independent, I hate the thought that things might just turn around for the better because I was used to things turning out so bad. Sometimes, I hate the thought that I might just be strong for awhile, because I was so used to breaking down when I think that all is too much for me to cope. I would sit and wait for the tears to fall, but lately it seemed like, I should be grateful to where I am and make it the best for me to cope.
There's so much for me to learn, though I know I'm not able to stand but I'll learn to crawl for now Even the birds fall before they can fly so I guess this is one of the millions time that I fall over and over again. Maybe whatever I did was a mistake but I'm sure it was a mistake to be done on purpose so I could learn to move on. Life can be pretty funny at teaching us.
Life is Interesting
Save You, Kills Me
In the cold fall of the year, a girl and a boy, with hearts of confusion walked together underneath the fallen leaves from the trees. The girl was happy, almost the happiest time of her life. She remembered the rain that drizzle and as they walk down the sidewalk, she could almost capture that smile on his face. That smile was enough to make her heart rate beats faster than she ever thought possible. The first time she ever spend a day, with a boy who treated her like she was special, with ice-cream and hot dogs at the carnival and made her smile throughout the days that passes by.
Among all the memories that they had together, those two days was the best days she could have ever imagined. A rose was given to her, and she remembered feeling shy when he did that unpredictable action. However, she began to realise, things don't go the way she wanted. They were nothing, and she was his friend and nothing more than that. She felt stupid all this while, and as she realise the ways he had talk to other girls, she realise he was no different to any other guys. He didn't felt the same way she did for him.
All in all, she was left in the darkness of hurt and burn. She knew it was too much to hope for but she forgot to seal what she had protected all this while. The one thing she treasured in her life, her heart. Now, it's broken into thousands of pieces that couldn't be restored overnight, over weeks,and possibly over years. The cause has been done, and she is left with nothing to feel. At lost, at burn at a state of feeling nothing at all.
