Life

Life is full of expectations and predictions. At this moment I can admit that I predict I will graduate with diploma by the end of next year, continue my degree maybe overseas and start working by the age of 22. Expect things would go smoothly without any bump on the road that can be swerve. However for every step ahead I took, my heart sunk just a little, enough to remind me where I came from and where I belong. Enough to slap myself at the thought of myself 10 years ago, a child who smiled and the weight of the world was not on her shoulder. I used to sit and imagine myself being that person I want to be with no worries, but the more I venture into the world of adulthood, I wish I could take back the wish I made years ago. A wish that I made, sublimely to the thought of working, earning money, freedom comes easy and the joy you see was perhaps what made you think the world was ruled by you.

Nowadays, I learn new thing day by day, I have my preferences rather than depending on others, you think for even the most little action that you do. Your thoughts are more serious and you began to lost the laughter you enjoyed when you were small when everything can be done freely. The time when you were small when whatever you do was not being judged but only be scolded. We had the magic and confidence that was hard to be taken away from. Yet over the years you lost most of it. At times when you sit among people, or watch a funny comedy and laugh like you didn't care, you began to realise how much you've missed it. You weight your actions and you realise every step further is another step harder than the previous. Now, life is full f decisions, thinking, wondering, perceiving and careful with every step.