The Adult World That Was Concealed

I was shopping with my mother at the mall, as she was browsing around inside the shop I sat on the chair the mall had provided. It took long enough for me to realise how the world could be selfish and cruel, it passes by so fast that we didn't realise it was around us. Oddly, I have walked by so many path and yet I prefer the one I used to take, back when I was younger. In order to survive, we change to fit in, we change to survive. Nobody knew the pain, scars, and hurt a person goes through neither do they know the thoughts than runs through a person. Hence, because of the changes we make, we took another path and took another chance whenever we think it was crucial. Due to that, we change into a person that we no longer know at the end of the day, and when we look at ourselves in the mirror everyday, you wouldn't know who you really are because you no longer took the time to see your mistakes or the deeds you've done instead, you make excuses that you have other things to do rather than looking at who you've become or turning to. When we were small, we had our parents to tell us it's wrong and make us think of the wrongs we did and vow not to do it again and give praises when we're doing something right. In the life of adulthood, we no longer have them to tell or judge us instead we only have ourselves because by that time we should already know who we really are.

When I was young, I used to see things as black and white yet, I realise that was not applicable when we grow older. It's like playing a game of chess or monopoly. You make a strategy and take a risk. You form an alliance and be wary of your enemy, like and old saying "keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer" which is true in order to survive and not be cheated. I've been cheated, been fooled and there are even times I realise that I had to be selfish so I'm not made used off. However, it's harder than I thought at times as I am a bit naive where, I trust people easily and spoilt them a lot and at the end of the day I began to realise that not everybody are the same as yourself. It's a learning process to realise that when the person you thought who would be there to catch you when you fall was missing and you end up standing alone and walking alone on the path you've thought could be so beautiful or hopeful . That's when I realise that I had to be selfish, build a wall in order to survive. I turn into a person I refuse to be but I had to in order to survive. Yet, I learn that we may have to be like that but set limitations and don't trust anyone so easy, don't let your heart out that fast, take your time and smile always. Whatever goes on in your life is for you to judge and see and mend or improve. Take a few minutes to look in the mirror and tell yourself of the beautiful things you did and the mistakes you did so you can improve or avoid them. I'm not saying it's stupid nor easy but it helps to see that your no saint nor a devil. We're human and it's normal to make mistakes you might regret but realise it's the mistakes that you makes that turns into a lesson.