The Moment I Realise

After class,I felt tired yet sad, I walk the stairs of where I stayed in the campus. As I walk down the hall, I reach the door to my room and inserted the key to open the door. The sound of the door creak and as I switched on the light, there was no one but me in the room. The feeling of emptiness, loneliness, and sadness filled me. I was alone with no one to come back to, Is this how it felt like, being single and living with nobody? Friends meant nothing, as I've yet to find one who stayed and showed their loyalty and because of that I stop caring about them and treated them as acquaintance. Partners are worst, I stop hoping because I was hurt by one boy a boy who played me out and left me wondering if it was real if the relationship was meant to be. I pulled the plug on that relationship and swore a boy who wants to win my heart must be more than what I expect him to be.

I turned cold over the years, when one say I sympathize the other, I said it's a way of life, you gotta learn to live having everyone leaving you behind. I realize I no longer have the urge to help the ones who betrayed me, the one who lied and the ones who didn't care about me and in return I did the same. It's not who I am but it is who I've become. Tears no longer fall so easily, my heart turned to stone, I died along with the serenity, and probably because I couldn't cope.