The Bright Sun May Just Be The Twilight of The Day

"I close my eyes and I travel in my mind to a place where I can be alone. It's hard to find time when all those time are shared with people. I open my eyes, I see the beach, the sound of the waves, the wind blowing against my skin. My heart breaks and aches but I still held the tears and just let my senses work their way into the moment.
Years of punishment, years of anger, years of disappointment and all those years of lost, thought me so much. A step front, a step back, the sand against my feet, the water sinking myself into the sand slowly. I wish I could fly like the birds, I wish I could just be alone, I had no one to depend on, no one to question my step, no one to make me feel of what a burden I could be. I change, I don't shed the tears as I used to when I was small, I was hard because I was betrayed, I lost my trust because I was in pain.
I walk alone around the beach in my mind with closed eyes. I didn't feel scared, I didn't feel caged, I didn't feel obliged, I just want to see the world for it's beauty. The world I see filled with falling leaves and flowers in the fall, the cold wind of twilight, the stars and sun sharing a moment at twilight. All I want to hear was the sound of children's laughter, two people holding hands without fear of what the future my hold, squirrels running around not cautious of the human beings. The world where everything was free from trouble.
Slowly the clouds turns dark and it was night, the cold night decorated with stars and a special ornament called the moon. The beach filled with celebration lights, a bonfire, a story was shared, and I still wonder if this was achievable. I close my eyes and it all went crashing down, the walls were restraining the fears, the sadness, the betrayal felt all those years and a shot of light turns dim before it even began. Than I realise, no matter how much I love you, it was never enough to erase the pain you've cause me, never enough to convince me, it was always and will always be a burden to you that I ever existed."

(Anonymus, 2012)