Every year teaches me something, to be stronger, to be firm, to not let petty things affect me so easily, to fight for my own will and along the way, I cry less, I was less tolerant, I was ignorant, I give back the way people has mistreated me. For that, I had forgotten what I wanted to do in life. All I ever wanted was to put a smile, to help, to not care if my kindess was repaid or not, to make the world a better place even if it's just one soul and to share with the world that there is beauty if you just watch.
Past history had carved every inch of me, the good, the bad, the soldier, the lady I am today. I fell too many times to not let it break me every time. Every crack on that wall was a wound that never healed overtime. What else could I expect from this cold life has to offer me? I was desperate to be accepted. I was desperate to not let people misuse and mistreat me every again. I had to stay strong but inside I was retaliating, I was unraveling. I wanted to be accepted but not by being a doormat.
So tell me, how did I forget my purpose my mission in life?
Long Forgotten Unnotice
All of Yesterdays
Did it pass by and not haunt us,
Was it written to be read again,
Here I am always close,
I am here never fading like a stain,
I smile in a crowded room,
my heart aches of pain,
the vines of thorns that looms,
darkness of bitter...
I am here always lending a hand,
temptation of nightmares,
why am I here in this cruel land,
is this right, is this fair,
I fell for the past,
I walk in fading faith and believe,
The same road alone again,
I'm still here the one that's there for you,
Tired eyes and mind,
I slept and slip into the notes,
every piece as if so kind,
pasting my soul,
breaking my heart,
to form what was broken,
Changing of fingers,
black and white was simple,
the mergence of them turns beauty,
tells a story need no words,
Just a simple key,
to answer with a few notes,
Sometimes there's no need of words,
If you close your eyes,
You will be cradled with a melodious piece,
Copyright by S.S, 2012
