Long Forgotten Unnotice

Every year teaches me something, to be stronger, to be firm, to not let petty things affect me so easily, to fight for my own will and along the way, I cry less, I was less tolerant, I was ignorant, I give back the way people has mistreated me. For that, I had forgotten what I wanted to do in life. All I ever wanted was to put a smile, to help, to not care if my kindess was repaid or not, to make the world a better place even if it's just one soul and to share with the world that there is beauty if you just watch.

Past history had carved every inch of me, the good, the bad, the soldier, the lady I am today. I fell too many times to not let it break me every time. Every crack on that wall was a wound that never healed overtime. What else could I expect from this cold life has to offer me? I was desperate to be accepted. I was desperate to not let people misuse and mistreat me every again. I had to stay strong but inside I was retaliating, I was unraveling. I wanted to be accepted but not by being a doormat.

So tell me, how did I forget my purpose my mission in life?