In So Many States

I would be writing from all my thoughts and still I don't think I said all that I would. There are so many grey parts in my life and I no longer understand where do I stand. I would write the story of my life starting University and all but it would be really funny. Things are just so confusing and so stupid in my opinion. I'm trying my best to understand people and myself and at the end of the day I find myself at verge of sanity. It seems so simple back then, but how did things got so complicated? How did relationships got so complicated with the opposite gender? How did things got so complicated to stay or be accepted in a group? How? I push people away because I don't want to get hurt. I push people away when I find that I'm being misused. All and all, things just doesn't seem to provide me with any kind of understanding with this world. Balancing everything and all. It's so hard.. really hard..