Say All I Need

After all of the hardwork and pleading letters along with thousand of tears being shed, I finally manage to settle myself down in a room. The room is on the 3rd floor of the block next to my previous block. I gotta admit, I complained at first but the view from up here, gives me a lot to think about. I finally had some inspiration to write. Apart from that, I am happy enough that the view of my window is facing the soft serene lake.
It has only been the 4th week but I'm surprise by my determination to live day by day. Heartbroken, shattered past, undefined future and the current rumours of my being spread around isn't exactly helping. I'm not sure how, but I gotta find a way to come out. I have to stop being scared of talking to others. I must shed away this shyness or this fear of making friends with people. I am scared but, I honestly think that I would be better if I didn't fear the crowd or people so badly. I guess now that I think about it, those fear began to arise when so many had hurt me overtime. So the fear began to build itself, and I began to have a wall that surrounds me that not many are able to penetrate.
Do you think I am able to make it? Can I finish my studies and place myself on the Dean's List every semester?? Am I able to make it through the next 4 semester? Honestly I don't know, but I'll keep you updated. For now love you all and may god bless you. Have a fun day today. ^,^