You Were Never Replaced.

I was walking alone watching the sun as it began to set. The cool breeze sends smile to my face. I let my hair go from the tight rubber that was holding it up, and my hair went wild as the wind blows. I close my eyes and every senses apart from my eyes was active. The softness of the wind sends chill to my skin. A soft whisper from the wind reminded me of him every minute. Slowly I began to walk towards the sea still with my eyes closed. When my feet touches the water, it reminded me of the day we walked side by side by this very sea. The sound of the waves and the birds in the sky felt so close to me. You felt close to me. It seemed like it happened yesterday but it was 3 years ago. It's amazing that I'm still standing here fighting the barriers and holding my tears every year.

I felt your presence there when you hugged me from the back. You wouldn't let me turn around but I knew it was you. Slowly I opened my eyes and slowly I tried to touch your hand on my shoulder and you disappeared. Tears form in my eyes and I tried as hard as possible to stop it. The heart ache was there, fresh and painful as hell. You used to be there but why did you go? I couldn't move on because it was you who saw me. My flaws was perfection to you, my laugh was a melody to you, my smile sends you flying with joy, my eyes made you weak, my weight was nothing, and the best of all when I'm me, you find it amusing and amazing. You were proud to call me your girl and you knew when I'm down. You showed up at my doorstep with a smile on your face and an ice cream for me to taste. Everytime a different flavour. Everytime with a new music to cheer me up. So tell me, why I should move on when nobody was good enough like you.

(This scene was playing in my head as I was listening to the song Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me. Don't ask me why but yeah the characters was playing inside my head and I just wanted to write it down. So since I haven't yet installed microsoft words therefore I only get to write it on my blog and you all get a chance to read it. Hope you enjoy it. Bear in mind that it's raw so it's not so good.)

Ramona and Beezus

I have heard of this movie since middle of last year. Based on a bestselling book, Ramona and Beezus written by Beverly clearly has sold over more than 30 million and still counting. I haven't bought the book yet but I'm interested in buying it. Ramona and Beezus which is set to premiere in cinema on July 23rd 2010 will be starring Selena Gomez as Beezus and Joey King as Ramona. After watching the trailer, it would be a good home movie to watch with your loved ones but I can't judge just yet till I watch the movie.
I would say, Ramona and Beezus basicly is story about two sisters who just can't get along. As they go through life and days of fights and misunderstandings, Beezus began to see the good side of Ramona rather than the troublesome kid who always brings her trouble. Here's Ramona and Beezus Trailer. Hope you enjoy them.

From Where I Stand

It's been a good and average 17 years of my life. Now, I'm going into the next phase where the burden of responsibility is even more, the path of your life is important, plus what I decide, determines where you I'll be in the future. I'm so used to a straight road that truthfully, when I came to a junction I have to wait and weight each one. Which is best and which would benefit more? Though I have chose the ideal college I would love to go to, I still have barriers that I have to go through. Where I stand may look easy but sometimes the choices isn't really in my hand. I would love to dream big, though many have told me that it isn't possible, I still imagine myself at that place with the instruments and the voice of cheering people. Than, when reality strikes, I began to wonder whether my dream should only be left as a dream. Never in my life have I felt nothing, nothing at all in me, but this was the first time. It's a feeling that kills me because now I truly know what people meant when they say, they rather feel pain than nothing at all. I felt it and honestly it's quite close to a failure's feeling. Like you're lost and you don't even know where you are or what you should do. All your movements are paralyzed and you think about everything weighing the problem and the obstacles. I pray to god nevertheless but sometimes I wish he would give a straight answer. Tell me that I will reach the end of it and soon realise that everything wasn't so bad. I pray...

Alice In Wonderland.

Today I finally get to watch the one movie I've been looking forward to for weeks. As a present from my sister she brought me, my mom and herself to watch Alice in Wonderland. She bought the Gold Class ticket and I was beyond happy when I found out. As I tuck myself comfortably inside the thick quilt I wait for the movie to start. I can feel my heart waiting for the movie to start.

Alice in Wonderland, famous with two sentence, "Off with their heads !" or " You're late for tea !" . Existed since the 1950's and still a classic tale to be told to the younger generations till this day. The new Alice in Wonderland takes place when Alice turn 19 years old and has gotten a proposal from a lord with digestion problem. The movie was funny, unique, classic, and the best. When I first saw Alice, I thought she couldn't be more pale than she already is but the actress did an amazing job as Alice. I try to keep my thoughts empty while trying to understand the whole story-line again. The last time I watch Alice in Wonderland, I remembered that I was confuse at the end of the movie. Probably because I was a toddler then and now that I'm more mature, I might understand it more. Therefore, through out the movie I watch closely as each of the actors play their roles. Anne Hathaway as the White Queen, Mia Wasikoska as Alice, Johnny Depp as Mad Hatter.

Overall, I would say they deserve an applause. There were only two characters that really caught my attention. Not that others didn't, but I would say this two characters will be remembered most aside from Alice the main character. One would be the Mad Hatter played by Johnny Depp and second, would be the Cheshire Cat played by Stephen Fry. Johnny Depp did an excellent job playing Mad Hatter, he delivered the character like he has lived his life as one before. How caring and protective he is towards Alice could be seen through his eyes when he looked at Alice. How sad he sounded when he had to say goodbye to Alice. I adore the relationship that existed between Alice and Mad Hatter. I could feel his emotion and a part of me wished that things ended differently . Honestly, after watching the trailer and before watching the movie, the Mad Hatter would be the last character that thought I will remember, or so I thought. However, I have to admit Johnny Depp is an excellent actor not to mention good looking. He even managed to laugh and act like he was mad, I mean mad in the head like he has gone bonkers. That shows how talented he was. I would love to elaborate more but I'm afraid I might spoil the story for those of you who haven't gotten the chance to watch.

Shall we move on to the Cheshire Cat. So creepy yet so adorable in a way. His smiles that lit up his face was one in I think ever. I doubt anybody can smile like that except for jokers and clowns but not normal people. The Cheshire Cat, always seem to portrays himself as if he doesn't care yet he still helped in ways that he can. This is what I can see in the movie. I like that he appears at random time and speaks as if his constantly calm. Makes me think if he takes yoga in his spare time. Those big adorable eyes always makes me wish that I had a cat like him. Apart from that I would say, without Cheshire, Alice in Wonderland wouldn't be complete.

Every role that is in the story plays an important part, even the scary and lunatic rabbit with his famous sentence " You're late for tea ! ". The flowers that can talk, walking cards, the wise caterpillar, and the small mouse. Each one of them contribute something to the movie that makes it so unique in it's on way. The whole time period I was watching the movie, it felt like I was in their world, like the world existed in some ways. This is all because of each and everyone of the characters.

If you are looking for something different to watch and still a little young at heart, you should watch this. Alice in Wonderland is a must watch movie, it's classic yet beautifully put together to send a message. Which has been what Disney has been good at. Make a date with Cheshire Cat and experience having a mad bestfriend like Mad Hatter. I know I wouldn't mind having one. I'm just beyond happy to finally get to watch it and I don't mind going again. Except I want to watch in 3D of course.

Here's a music video of Alice in Wonderland's soundtrack sang by Avril Lavigne.

I Wish You Wouldn't Hide.

From where I am writing right now, it's dificult to position myself. Torn between feelings and the weather outside. Not very few minutes ago, the weather was deciding itself weather to rain on this small town or not. Finally they came to an agreement to wet the dry earth. I'm sitting on my bed as I'm writing this and I thought about the conversations I've had. Dwelling on things I shouldn't be and thinking about the future that I will be in. Many secrets have been hidden from me but somehow god showed them to me. I wondery why? This is because when I find out about them, the pain slashes through my heart like the pain from the previous scar wasn't enough.
This are the rare times I let myself release my emotions on my blog. Most of the times I'll be writing them in my diary. It felt safe writing in my diary, nobody sees them or read them unless they found them.. Though some find them very offensive or depressing. It's my own thoughts and opinions I write on my blog, I didn't mean to affect you. It's just my way of telling the world that I still survive despite the rainstorm and the thunders in my life. There are still light and birds chirping ones in a blue moon. I have said it many times, there's sugar and spice in life and maybe right now I get more spice but maybe in the future I'll get more sugar to balance the dish. I know, I don't make sense only in my world it makes sense but I'm glad for whoever I am even though it seems like I'm complicated.
Than there is this fool part of me that kept giving people second, third, fourth chances. I'm pretty sure I'm over it and I know I look and sound like I'm stupid for saying this. I don't like fighting among my friends or the person I'm in love with or have a crush on. So even after he had make use of me, call me when he needed me, and ignore me when he is with his friends, I still wait at the side of the road till he needs me. It seemed unfair and many have called me names for still letting myself open to him. Yet it felt like a stupid thing for me to even to not acknowledge him at all. It's like that song that I keep on replaying it ones but I can't remember the name of the song. People kept telling me I'm stupid, too easy, too blind and many other things even after he has done so many wrong things to me, but I still think that maybe someday he'll see them or maybe when I move on to somebody else it won't hurt anymore and still I didn't lose my friend. So that's what my thought was.
Now, I see darkness outside my window. It's Twilight, and little drops of rain can be seen on my window from the rain just now though the rain has stopped long ago. I wonder whether there will be dawn for me. Will I see the light shinning on me in the future and that is what I have to go through in life. The street lights are on but I can't see the cars that are moving.
The sky is grey and it's glowing dimly. Will I see this in the future. Will I'll be writing at this time of the day in the future in the exact same place and remember back where I was and the obstacles I've overcome. Will I? Nobody knows.. But I'll climb the ladders and stand on that pedestal. I'll prove it that I can make it through and no matter how many times you bring me down I'll rise through. Even in the middle of the ocean, high up in the clouds, lost in the forrest or just standing by the sea and looking at the sunset I'll allways remember this feeling I love. This feeling where my muse is consolling me. Where he or she reminds me that you'll get through it someday and express yourself in the best way of how you feel. Just to let you know, as I'm writting the last few sentence I smile alone on my bed facing my window and looking at the darkness began to grew outside, soon nothing could be seen, that's when I wait for daylight.

p/s: I was listening to Trading Yesterday - Shattered as I'm writting this post. Too bad the band broke up. I would've bought their album. Thanks to them I manage gain my inspiration back. They never fail me.

The Countdown Begins for Eclipse !

As many of you all know I am a die hard Twilighter and proud to be one, regardless what people say about it. Therefore I am proudly to announce that I will be counting down the days till Eclipse will be release. Muahahahaha..... So far the much anticipated teaser trailer has been release and I've got it on my blog. na na nana na.... lol. So be sure to keep update on my crazy OCD (Obsessive Cullen Disorder) post and updates. At least according to the movie I do have OCD since I watch each and every video on the DVD including the credits.. Yep I've got a sickness and nobody can do anything about this sickness. lol. Currently I'm dividing my heart between the two vampire men I'm in love with, that is Stefan(The Vampire Diaries) and Edward. lol. Here's the video ! Enjoy !

The Hillywood Show

I am no fan in this kind of stuff but they manage to caught my attention 2 days ago. While my friend was talking about the stupid spoof people has been making about Twilight, we thought we check it out. As a Twilighter I was a bit mad by how reckless they can be but when I stumble upon The Hillywood show Twilight Parody I was beyond amaze and somehow I didn't take it as an insult to the movie that has raise millions of fans before the movie was even out. The Hillywood Show, created by the two sisters, Hannah and Hillary Hindi has raise million of viewers doing Parodies and short shows called The Hillywood Show. The Hillywood Show features random characters from movies like the Pirates of The Caribbean, Dark Knight, Star Wars and many more. Their focus on making parodies are more likely to attract teenagers/young adults audience. Mostly known on their work The Twilight Parody by The Hillywood Show. Their own show The Hillywood Show has already got 2,000,000 viewers. According to the website "It all started a few years ago when Hilly entered AOL’s “Be a Red Star” contest and came in third out of nearly 100,000 video entries. Though disappointed with the loss, Hilly trudged on, armed with a brand new camera and the support of a handful of fans who had seen her entry. Fifteen webisodes and several film parodies later, The Hillywood Show is a phenomenon of talent and humor. When their Twilight parody hit the web, their popularity soared, hitting a home run with the unstoppable force that is the Twilight fandom. "-By Joy Scoglione

Apart from that, all the costumes and make-up are all fantastic and almost exactly the same as what you see in the real Twilight movie. The cinematography, editing, make-up, directing, and screenplay are all produced by the two sisters. Everything you see are all funded by the two sisters personal incomes and they manage to do it with only the presence of one camera only.

The Hillywood Show was created by Hillary and Hindi. Hillary Hindi is the younger sister, born on March, 2nd 1990 to parent Robert and Emily Hindi. She has an older sister Hannah Hindi(part of the Hillywood Show). She was unique and she was already dancing at the age of five. As it is she has impersonated for about 20 characters since. Since small she loves using her personality in annual dance recitals, children's pantomime shows and drama competitions, which was the first time Hillary got her blue ribbon at the age of six. A dancer for fifteen years. Hillary takes ballet, tap, pointe, hip hop, and jazz dance class. She received honors from the Royal Academy of Dance and also the Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing in London, England. Hilary now plans to major in acting/directing/editing and SFX Make-up Design.

Hannah Hindi, older sister of Hillary Hindi was born on April, 1986. She has been a dancer for seventeen years and teaching for thirteen years. Hannah has received honors, certificates, and medals from The Royal Academy of Dance and The Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing in London, England. Taking the footsteps of becoming a professional dance instructor, she received two degrees, A Tap Degree and Jazz Degree from The Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing. Presently she is studying for Ballet Degree and more about choreography. Hannah is also the make-up artist, writer and co-star of The Hillywood Show.

Hillywood Show has already uploaded their New Moon Parody by The Hillywood Show and I must say that it was good. They really did well in making it look exactly like how it did on New Moon. Not to mention the exact same dress Kristen Stewart ones wore. Give them a round of applause !

I can foresee that this two girls will make it big in the world of films. They are very talented and deserve to be recognise even more. I wish them the best in their journey. The Hillywood Show also has an amazing cast members like Hillary Hindi, Hannah Hindi, Brittany Turner, Andre Beroud, Drew Lorentz, Jacob Jost, Kyle Dayton, Justin Bechtold, Destiny Gillin, Coy Shin, Taylor Lanier, Nick Alspaugh, Sean Roberts, Andy Forrester, Henry Martin, and Brent Hegwood, All information that I got are from their own website, http://www.thehillywoodshow.com/. Credits also goes to The Hillywood Show for all the pictures and video. If you want to know more about The Hillywood Show you can check it out on their website http://www.thehillywoodshow.com/ and on their youtube channel http://www.youtube.com/JckSparrow . Here's my three favourite video from The Hillywood Shows.

Alice In Wonderland.

After a long time, I was searching for a movie that doesn't make me think of the word "cliche". The much anticipated movie Alice in Wonderland is finally premiering and I can't wait to grab tickets to watch the movie. Call me crazy but I have been repeatedly playing the trailer. So here is the trailer.