The First Time I Witness..

I've been to caught up in my life here that I tend to forget those beautiful things I used to cherish back at home. The laughter of my family, shooting stars, sun sets, and the break of dawn. Today, when I ran away from that place I've begun to like and now begun to hate, I found that feeling that I felt in the past. That was me, myself that I was searching and every short glimpse that I take to see myself, I wonder if that was me. So, I stopped writing and prayed to god, hoping that god would lead the way for me. In some weird connections, I felt that emptiness inside, I felt that girl who was constantly letting go of things, who took things easily. Although she dwell upon something about half out of hundred percent, she was there.
I don't know where I stand right now. This things are too messy and this would be the first time I have to deal with something like this. I enjoyed most of the time we were together. Never been treated like a real lady in most times we were together but the small things you do counts. No relationships, no string just enjoying each others company was nice. Yet, there are boundaries in it. I would feel like I have betrayed my friend though she neglected, rejected and treated you so badly. She now confesses the truth about her feelings. I play the game well this past few weeks and now I think it's saying Game Over ! Though it felt like I took the right steps but it was actually all the wrong steps. Now I must face the consequences. I know she might be aware of my heart's desire but I will move on and give her way to you. No matter, even when you said you have no feelings for her and deny them all together. The reason is, I've seen you head over heels over her and I might think that I was just a tool in this to make her notice her desire. One thing I believe, when your heart is passionate about something, it takes a long time to change. Examples are my friend and his go-kart race, I and my music, and you with her. I've done my job as I always thought I will. So the rest is up to you. No matter what happen, we're still friends just not that of a close we used to be. ;P

p/s: Boy do I sound cheesy here.. lol This is so not me... Wel at least you get to see this side of me. Enjoy !! Signing out now..