Am I Still Standing Here Because of Sympathy

I knew I loved you once, with all my heart. As season change and as you put a scar across my heart I began to move on slowly and painfully. Though we remain friends, the situation makes it harder. Whenever we meet I restrict myself from sitting beside you, and avoid eye contact. When you seek me because you felt comfortable, I felt the need to be there. The reasons used to be because I cared and because I was in love with you. That was until you hurt me a few days ago and I began to numb my feelings for you. When I see you I knew that part of my heart still loved you but another reason is because I think I'm here because I felt sympathy. I feel the need to be there for you because you needed someone to be there. When you asked me where I am and when you asked if I wanted to accompany you to eat? It felt wrong to decline the invitation because I didn't want to hurt you, make you sad or stress you. This sickness that you have requires you to control your emotions and I can't be there when you are stress or depress. I have to lead my life and I have to move on and I can't be there because being there for now means giving you a chance to think that I might just fall back into the same history. I'm giving you a chance to chase your girl because I know I'm not. In return I'm hoping that you would let me do the same. Let me move, let me take a chance with someone else, and you can lead your life with the girl you had loved for years.
Slowly I'm letting go and today I realise that I can be strong. I won't take back all my things just yet by I will soon, when I know you're ready, and when I'm ready. Thanks for the memories and making me realise that I shouldn't fall for any guys like you anymore.