Searching For Someone You Once Knew So Well

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that fights will lead to something better at times. I believe that once you've overcome something you'll see the difference, and I believe that through time, my life here has changes for so many things. I can't deny that some are bad and some are good. Now when I sit here, I began to realise that I change myself to fit the perfect package of others but not mine. Who I am, or what is left has been screaming to stop myself. Those confidence that I carry around seems to disappear bit by bit and I regret letting them do so. All this while all my thoughts were to be accepted that I had forgotten the people who truly accepted me.

During the days in high school, I wasn't being accepted nor was I being liked with rumors about me going around. At the end of the day, I stood up, I place a smile that I began to believe in more and more each day and I never really told them the truth. They all found out about me by themselves. Some even told me that I was the total opposite of people has been saying. Yet, why do I try here? Is it because, I'm in a new environment or maybe have I lost who I am in searching to handle my in the outside world. The outside world with no comfort zone, nobody to hang on, and nobody to trust. I can't deny that I'm not sure of who should I trust or shouldn't trust. No matter what? God has been the one person I talk, cry, praise, or tell the most stupidest thing that some of my friends won't accept. God is the only person that wouldn't judge me and I am free to tell everything and pray to every single time I needed help.

Today, I am pulling my old true self from the past. Not be that serious girl I've turned to be since I entered university. I will smile and laugh. I will tell others that I'm fine just being who I am. Yet, I will listen. Nobody is perfect but I believe, your imperfections is what makes you perfect.

That's all for now, make sure to check out for future updates of my life in a new phase.. hey I'm just in my second semester ;P Love you all !!!