The Dark Silent Night

Occasionally, I could see a car drive by across the street of my house. I switched on the festive light hoping to add some light into my life. There were not many stars tonight and no moon that shine so brightly as the days before this. As I sit at my brother's balcony, I began to wander around in my own thoughts in search for an inspiration to write something.
The willow tree seems sad tonight or maybe it's only in my own mind and imagination. Soft wind that blew tonight, seems so delicate against my skin, yet I didn't feel the slightest bit comfort by it. Street lights was already switched on, however I'm surprise that I've never really notice them before. I realise that I have not been noticing the little things in my life as I used to before this. Always too absorb in making them happy, making them please, I overlook the things that used to make me happy in the past. That hold me to the ground that brought smiles in my own thoughts and made me want to chase my dream. Not even for a split second that I overlook the things that I would like to achieve in the future till 5 months ago.
We are always in search of people who care about us, yet we forgot one part of that, the person who care about us the most is either your family or yourself. There's a tug in my heart that wonder, if the things we do for others would be return back. Some say it's Karma, I call it fate. I used to be a Karma believer, yet I rarely seem the things I did for others being return back to me. Hence, I've become cold over the months, I would like to blame them for these things, but they contributed to it but the decision remains to be mine. So I stare tonight into the dark silent night hoping to witness a shooting star. My one and only wish is to achieve that dream, that plan I had created about 3 years ago in my life. I will be happy, and I intend to make that happen. Have hope and have a wish.
"He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away."
-Raymond Hull