Is it Ever Gonna Be Enough

As I sit here in my room, running away from all that I feel and drowning myself in tears, I couldn't really grasp fully my thoughts and my emotions. I feel so betrayed, so confuse, so cheated, so stupid and so foolish. As an adult, I learn from my mistakes, and I get by it by myself, I may cry, I may run away but I will move on. I will not my let heart break over and over again. Yet there is one thing, one thing I would like to know, if I ever I leave this world, would you regret? Would you cry? Would you even in the slightest way have an emotion running through you? I know the answer would be no, and I guess I have to run away.. Run as far away as I can and never come back. Never walk the same road, and never make the same mistakes. Sometimes, this are the things you realise you're better off alone. Now that I think about it, I enjoy being alone, just away from everybody, away from the public eyes and friends and family, and stop letting them judge you, say things about you and just see yourself only for yourself.
When I see the eyes that were watching mine in the mirror, I wanted to ask her if she was alright, would she be alright in hope she could answer them on my behalf, giving me hope. Hence, this one week would be my week alone, I'm shutting myself out for awhile and start venturing myself into this new world alone. So maybe, you will see my post being written from some place other than my room or the common places you'll know where to find me. At the end of the week I would like to ask myself, " Is it ever gonna be enough?" because I don't know whether what I've been through was enough to make me stop one vein in my body.